I have been trained to compare things and people; these include others and myself.

On 20190414, I chanced upon an instagram of a mother (Hazliana) who reads a lot for her daughters and teaches them well in numeracy and literacy. She has also prepared sensory toys, her daughters have drawn colorfully or creatively, and they did a lot of crafts [1]. I am envious and worried for Little Princess ad I have not exposed her to much of sensory toys and we have not sent her to any school after she dropped out before turning 1 year old.

At least, from 20190416, I started posting materials that I taught Little Princess (see ref2019/done_agenda* for the Instagram tag). While it would not be able to out compete the colorful stuff that children are exposed at nursery and kindergartens, at least we had learned some things.

Then, on 20190415, I wasted my precious 1 hour (while Little Princess) was napping, browsing and learning more about a Miss World runner up whose look resemble the Godmother of Little Prince. I wondered what she has been up to. She is an entertainer (of course, with such a credential and good look!) and does missions.

I must stop comparing myself to others. I could always learn from others, but not feel low self-esteem.

I am not a bird that sing beautifully without a word.
I am not a bug who crawls in a mug.
I am not a dragon that sits in a wagon.
I am not a parrot that loves eating carrot.
I am no a squirrel that likes to quarrel.
I am a mother who loves reading for my chidlren,
while juggling the desire to simply cook healthy food for them.

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[1] While we were browsing a book store on 20190416, Little princess requested me to buy for her a craft book containing a scissor and papers that can be cut to make items e.g. hats, umbrella, etc. However, the minimalist me who was worried of clutters told her “later, Darling!” Mama would buy for you only after you know how to color properly. I bought her a coloring book. For books that we can borrow from libraries, I would not by for Little Prince or Little Princess. Yes, that’s how frugal I am, especially I trade the hours of my life to spend more time with Little Princess instead of earning $.